I've had a rough month, at least by my standards. Every three or four days I just slip into a really negative state of mind and I think it comes from a lack of faith in humanity. Probably a combination of my constant worrying and my need to feel useful. You can't see it on my face, but I loose energy and start to feel really alone.

Very lofty I'll admit but everyday I seem to experience something that shouldn't have happened. Criminals freed because it's too expensive to prosecute or they're too famous to have their names deservedly dragged through the mud. Just the generally warped priorities of nearly everyone I meet, valuing money, celebrity, football, alcohol, Facebook. Forgetting how to talk to real people beyond a simple 'how are you?' or asking the same question about my course that they've asked a hundred times. Sometimes forgoing conversation entirely just to tell me to 'cheer up' without giving me a reason to smile.

I think my depressions stem from my cowardice, which has gotten me into trouble in the past. I don't think I get upset because of the problems themselves but rather the fact that I sit and do nothing about these things. I don't vote, I don't tell people off for talking in the library. I tried to make a start by telling a guy who follows my friends around in a bar to back off.

Maybe just writing this will help, maybe just having one person (Omni) read this will be enough to make me feel like I've done SOMETHING.